Q. I'm an 18 year old guy and shouldn't be feeling like this. Plus I hang out with friends who always get in fights and they sometimes drag me in it. Can I avoid the constant drama?
A. You can only be stronger by building your confidence. You obviously have a lot of fear in your life through a lack of affirmation and value from those you care about. Only learning to love and value yourself will give you the gradual strength you need to face the world.
But the first thing you could do is to change your friends. Friends who are always fighting or dragging you into it, especially when you don't really want to, will do nothing for you. Strength isn't about fighting. It is about confidence, high self esteem, personal appreciation and living to your own values.
You feel weak because you really don't want to fight and are living against your own values. You need the confidence to stick by your own principles, not just follow what others do in a blind, accepting kind of way. You will feel much better for it, too, when you start hanging out with people who share your aspirations, beliefs and principles, as you will feel reinforced and affirmed as a person.
In answer to your question, you are afraid of drama because that is against your nature, yet you are hanging out with people who are only interested in drama. That would create continual dissonance for you: always making you feel stressed and inadequate because you are not being affirmed in your beliefs and whom you wish to be. Time to change your crowd and find people who share your world and hopes. Then you will start to feel much better about who you are and what you care about.
We all have a feeling of wanting to BELONG, to be included and valued. Your wish to belong is drawing you towards the wrong kind of people for you which does nothing for your self esteem because they don't reflect how you feel. I think once you change your friends - perhaps by joining clubs and societies that you like - you are likely to find that you feel much better within yourself and far less troubled about your life.